I really don’t know what to do for college. Basically there are three things that I’m considering and each one is nice for a different reason and I just don’t know what to do.
I can stay at home, go to community college. I get the comfort of staying in a familiar place and with people I know. I can see my friends really whenever I want or when they’re available. but at the same time, i hardly ever hang out with my friends outside of school anyway. So there’s a good chance that I wouldn’t see them anyway, even if I did stay here. And I just don’t want to be one of those people to waste away in community college, because I’ve seen it happen a lot where they go in thinking that it’ll just be two years, and now it’s been almost four and they still have no idea what they’re going to do or when they’ll be able to get out.
I could go to Fresno State. It’s kind of like the midway zone. I would have to give up seeing my friends all the time and the comfort of my room and the house that I know and love. but at the same time, I’d be taking a step out on my own, while still having family to live with. It’d be far enough from my every day life where I could gain some sort of independence, but not be too far away where I couldn’t go and see them on the weekend or something.
Or I could go to Northern Arizona. I would basically have to give up all comforts of home and family, other than phone calls and vacations. But I also get out on my own. I would get to experience new things and people and basically get to start over. I would probably be terrified at first, but able to get through it. And I really like the idea of it, but every time I think about it, I get the reoccurring thought like, what if I can’t do it? I don’t want to fail at something so expensive. I know I can’t succeed if i don’t try, but I also can’t fail if I don’t try.\
People keep asking me what I want to do,
